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| Well, its October 5th. Which means I haven't updated in about 10 months. Whoa. Thats a long time. I was just thinking today that I may never be good at keeping an online journal, even though I have always wanted to. Really, I wish that if people wanted to know what was going in my life and inside my head they would just ask. Man, my life has changed since the last entry. I used to think that I would really miss being in school. I don't at all though... now my life is just stressful in different ways. Instead of worrying about homework and projects, now I'm worrying about getting a job and not having enough money. And I wish I didn't worry about those things... because I know that God is in control and he will take care of me. But most of the time I feel like my budget is in control of my life. Also, working full time has its ups and downs. Having no homework ROCKS, but working early in the morning at Starbucks is NOT fun. I had a really rough day at work today. Being a shift leader is definitely NOT a glamous job and I definely don't get paid enough. I get frustrated with the job bc I have to be so focused on "getting stuff done" that I don't get to enjoy the people part of the job. I find myself getting so annoyed with people because they are getting in the way of what needs to be done. AND that just stinks. #1 People come to starbucks to get coffee... that shouldn't be annoying. #2 I'm not walking in the spirit at work AT ALL. So... thats really no good. So please, please, please keep praying that I will get a job soon!! Well... I think thats about it for now... time for dinner! | | |
| Well, its December 1st... so I was thinking I could do 2 entries this month.... but I can't make any promises. I know how much everyone looks forward to reading this little online journal, so I don't want to get anyone's hopes up. ;) Anyway, I can't believe its the end of the semester already. Where the heck did it go. I have a buttload of stuff to do next week, so as long as I can get that done, I'll be good to go. My list of things for the rest of the semester looks like this:
Monday Dec 5th: MKT 233 Exam (if I do well, I won't have to take the final and I'll get an A for the semester)
Tuesday Dec 6th: MKT 355 Group Presentation (if my group gets their lazy butts together, I will get an A for the semester)
Wednesday Dec 7th: MKT 232 Exam (if I do well, I will get an A for the semester)
Thursday Dec 8th: have time to breath!
Friday Dec 9th: still more breathing time
Saturday Dec 10th: work all day
Sunday Dec 11th (2 months until my birthday!) work all day and into the night
Monday Dec 12th: take a possible final if Exam on Dec 5th doesn't go well
Tuesday Dec 13th: write a BS philosopphy paper and assemble a BS portfolio of all my BS philosophy papers (and if all of the BSing goes well, I will get an A for the semester)
Well, now that you know my schedule for the next 12 days, I feel pretty stressed out. For the first time since I graduated high school, I might be able to pull of straight A's. It would be absolutely amazing. So this upcoming week is going to have a lot of pressure in it!!
In other news, there are a couple situations that I am pretty stressed out about. I won't go into detail here... but I would really like them to be resolved and I think that only way that will happen is if I get some guts and confront people. That has never been a strong point for me... but I need to grow in this area so I should probably work on it.
Well, I feel like I spend way too much time on facebook/myspace/AIM (and we know that a whopping 20 minutes per month on xanga!) so I feel like I need to take a break from them, to fast if you will. I wake up in the morning, check my email, check facebook, and check away messages. Then i take a shower, check my email AGAIN and check more away messages. Then in all of my breaks between classes, I go to the computer lab and stalk more people on facebook. It is getting to be ridiculous actually. So I think I'm take a couple of days off from them, and whenever I would normally check facebook or away messages I will pray, or read a bible (not my bible, mind you, because for some reason I can't find it ANYWHERE and I am really sad!) . Ok, well I have a lot of stuff to do tonight, so I need to get going.
Here's one more thought though....
Today I choose to expeerience joy in the midst of the 500 things I have to do.
Why?
Because the joy of the Lord is my strength. | | |
| Well, its time for my monthly xanga update. My computer is finally up and running, which may be tempory, but I have missed being online SO much. And my music. The radio just isn't that great here in good old central illinois. I was reading my last couple entries and I am excited to see that God has worked in my like in awesome ways this semester. First off, memorizing Romans 8 was such a great thing for me. I feel like a lot of good has come out of it, including free pizza!!! But on a more serious note, putting truth into my head every day for a month was so refreshing, especially because I had to repeat it over and over and over to remember it. I was a little sad when I realized that the challenge was over... I love being motivated to get something done. So now I think I will memorize Philipians. Its 102 verses... so it will take me longer, but I am excited to keep going.
Also, I am officially staying in Normal next year. I signed for an apartment and I am super exicted about it. Of course I will miss the HAK house tons... next year there will be LOTS of changes, so I hopefully I will adjust ok. But I am living with 3 awesome chicks and I know we will have tons of fun. 
Well, I am SOOOOO excited for thanksgiving break. Originally, I thought I was going to have to work the WHOLE week, so I didn't think I would get to go home. But then, they didn't schedule me at all. At first I was a little upset because I really could use the extra money, but then I realized I could go home and spend some quality time with my fam. And I haven't been home since August and I've only seen our new puppy once... he is SO cute!! I'm kinda sad that I will be missing the leadership retreat, but lately some old lies from last year have been coming back to haunt me... so I feel like its best for me to just go home and figure everything out there. Sometimes believing the truth is like being on a diet. Just because you lost weight, doesn't mean you can't gain it all back. But I feel like I have grown a lot since last year, so I just need to put my hope in God again and trust that he is working for my good in all situations. (And we know in all things, God is working for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28)
Well, thats all for now. I'll be back next month.  | | |
| "Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Because through Christ Jesus the law of the spirit of life has set me free from the law on sin and death. For what the law was powerless to do, in that it was weakened by sinful nature, God did by sending his own son in the likeness of a sinful man to be a sin offering. And so he condemned sin in sinful man in order that the righteous requirements of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to sinful nature, but according the the spirit. For those who live in accordance with sinful nature have their mind set on what that nature desires. But those who like in accordance with the spirit have their mind set on what the spirit desires. The mind of a sinful man is death, the the mind controlled by the spirit is life and peace. A sinful mind is hostile towards God. It does not submit to God's will, nor can it do so. Those controlled by sinful nature cannot please God. You, however, are not contorlled by sinful nature, but by the spirit, if the spirit of God is in you. And if you do not have the spirit of Christ, you do not belong to Christ. But if you are in Christ, your body will die because of sin, but your spirit will live because of righteousness. And if the spirit him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his spirit, who lives in you." Whew. Thats Romans 8:1-11. And I did that all from memory except that last verse... which I have had trouble remembering all day. I'm going to memorize all 39 verses... I only have 6 1/2 more weeks.... lol. I am glad that Kelsey challenged me (out loud and in front of everyone!) to do this because while I have been working at it, I realized that I have been hungry to memorize God's word but have been lazy about it. So keep asking me how I'm doing!!
I realized that I officially stink at having an online journal. It's been over a month since my last entry. Oh well. I have been doing lots of other things with my time. Lets see what has changed from my last entry. Well, in the last 2 weeks I have lost 5 pounds! I am pretty excited about that, even though I know from here on out, its going to be a SLOW process. I have 11.4 more pounds to go... maybe i can get close by Christmas. Well... I guess thats all my updates for now. Maybe I'll be back in another month!! :) | | |
| The first week of classes is officially over. Now its time to actually start the "work" part of classes. BOO! I have to give a presentation with powerpoint on Monday, which I am really putting off right now.
This week has been good. This year is different in a lot of ways. Its wierd having a "real job"-- at least starbucks is more real than campus dining. I work with quite a few people that are Christians, but everyone there is really nice. And my small group is so different this year. Andrea and I are officially all girls. At one point in my life I would have thought that was the craziest idea ever, but now I really feel like we are doing what God wants. I am really excited about it, and I hope that lots of new people come. Andrea and I have lots of good ideas, and I hope people can really open up, be honest and we can have lots of great disscussions!
The Rock was tonight. It was a little wierd having it in CVA, but overall it was good. Afterward we went to Dairy Queen (I had the best sundae ever... hot fudge and peanut butter!) and then hung out at Jerry's house II. In the middle of worship I got really sad when I realized that is probably going to be my last year at Cornerstone. Like, when you know something is going to eventually end, so you savor every bit of it. I really feel like I am not meant to stay in Normal, but at the same time, the thought of saying goodbye to so many people that have become my family seems too hard to think about. I felt the same way in high school, and I survived leaving that... but sometimes I forget what my life was like before ISU. Since I moved back to Normal, I have just felt this overwhelming dread that my life is going to change in big ways after this year, and I am just not ready for that. Anyway, this is a really random post. And I should probably go to bed. I have lots of homework and cleaning to do tomorrow, plus I have to work! So... peace out! | | |
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